Dead End

skinny love

2011-05-10T05:50:00.000-07:00

Come on skinny love just last the year . Pour a little salt we were never here . My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my . Staring at the sink of blood and crushed veneer . I tell my love to wreck it all . Cut out all the ropes and let me fall . My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my . Right in the moment this order's tall .

And I told you to be patient And I told you to be fine And I told you to be balanced And I told you to be kind
And in the morning I'll be with you But it will be a different kind And I'll be holding all the tickets And you'll be owning all the fines .

Come on skinny love, what happened here? . Suckle on the hope in light brassieres . My, my, my, my, my, my, my, my . Sullen load is full, so slow on the split .

And I told you to be patient And I told you to be fine And I told you to be balanced And I told you to be kind And now all your love is wasted And then who the hell was I? And I'm breaking at the britches And at the end of all your lines .

Who will love you?

Who will fight?

Who will fall far behind?

EDIFYING: Ten Commandments

2011-03-29T23:09:00.000-07:00

Someone has written these beautiful words. Must read and try to understand the deep meaning of it. They are like the ten commandments to follow in life all the time.

1] Prayer is not a "spare wheel" that you pull out when in trouble, but it is a "steering wheel" that directs the right path throughout.

2] So why a Car's WINDSHIELD is so large & the Rear view Mirror is so small? Because our PAST is not as important as our FUTURE. So, Look Ahead and Move on.

3] Friendship is like a BOOK. It takes few seconds to burn, but it takes years to write.

4] All things in life are temporary. If going well, enjoy it, they will not last forever. If going wrong, don't worry, they can't last long either.

5] Old Friends are Gold! New Friends are Diamond! If you get a Diamond, don't forget the Gold! Because to hold a Diamond, you always need a Base of Gold!

6] Often when we lose hope and think this is the end, GOD smiles from above and says, "Relax, sweetheart, it's just a bend, not the end!

7] When GOD solves your problems, you have faith in HIS abilities; when GOD doesn't solve your problems HE has faith in your abilities.

8] A blind person asked St. Anthony : "Can there be anything worse than losing eye sight?" He replied: "Yes, losing your vision!"

9] When you pray for others, God listens to you and blesses them, and sometimes, when you are safe and happy, remember that someone has prayed for you.

10] WORRYING does not take away tomorrow's TROUBLES, it takes away today's PEACE.

2011-03-13T08:27:00.000-07:00

i have the perfect guy,

he compliments me , loves me , does almost anything for me , gives full attention to me , cares about me , notices small things , and most importantly he accepts me for who i am .

don't ever say you're not good enough for me .

2011-02-19T23:15:00.000-08:00

I have always loved the beach. The smell of the salty water, the wind in my face, the gentle roar of the waves all combine to create a sense of peace and calm.
to have spent my 18th birthday at the beach in the middle of the night with my love ones was more than i could ask for rather than spending it with a memory that would only last a night .

2011-02-19T22:20:00.001-08:00

just when the caterpillar thought the world was over

it became a butterfly !

2011-01-31T23:46:00.000-08:00

" Anytime you break a moral principal, you create a small crack in the foundation of your integrity. And when times get tough, it becomes harder to act with integrity, not easier. Character isn't created in a crisis; it only comes to light."
John Maxwell

2011-01-24T05:48:00.000-08:00

Families are like fudge - mostly sweet with a few nuts.

you will never be

2011-01-23T07:10:00.000-08:00

How did we ever come to this . I never thought you'd be someone I'd have to miss and there I was caught in your game . Needing answers that never came and we took a chance, you said you were strong . Strong enough but you were wrong . And now I'm deafened by your silence . Blinded by the tears . If you're looking for forgiveness , you won't find that here . Cause you lied your way to heartbreak and now it's all too clear that you will never be .

Look at her , she won't ever compare . You can say you're sorry but I still don't care . Was she worth this mess . Was she worth this pain . You can say it's her fault . But you're both to blame .
Looking back it was all so easy . I hope you know you're my last mistake . Don't come around and say you need me . I won't stay .
Now I know that you were so deceiving . Was it fun for you to walk away . I hope you liked it . Cause she's so damn easy . You won't change .

SBS

2011-01-23T06:38:00.000-08:00

I'm sick of people judging people by the way they look.

When you're 80, will it really matter if your boyfriend was "hot" when you were younger? No.

What will matter is that your husband has a great personality and that you two love each other for whats in the inside.

lights in the darkness

2011-01-21T21:31:00.001-08:00

earlier today i heard an uplifting true-story of miraculous healing . i would say it was a turning point .
i learned that what might seem as a semi disaster, is in reality just a part of the learning curve we face as humans . like they say , everything happens for a reason . why complain ? live with it and try to overcome it like an adult . think big . think logic . think real .
keep this in mind , when life gives you lemons , be sure to say thank you . after all , it's a learning experience . well of course , we wouldn't want to wish for trouble but when it comes just take a deep breath , close your eyes and relax .
i would want to appreciate everything i have in life and not take anything , anyone for granted . we wouldn't know when it will be taken away from us .
thus , I'm going to do what i want , say what i feel , and love what i love without any limitations . I'm not wasting anymore of my life in apathy . after all , we only live once .

Tommy and Krista

2010-12-23T07:23:00.000-08:00

Well Tommy met Krista at the age of nineteen . The prettiest girl that he'd ever seen . And there was not alot of waiting, they started dating . They used to hang out at the coffee shop there . And the weather was nice and the stakes were quite high . And one day Tommy made Krista cry . A little mixup, screwup, started a fight and Krista went and said goodbye .

She used to be in love with me . And now she's gone and taken all the love away . She used to be in love with me . And now I'm just a memory .

hello December

2010-12-23T06:01:00.000-08:00

to write love on his arms
PART TWO ;

take note that this is my heart talking and not my brain . therefore I'm not listening to the part of my mind which holds one's knowledge of right or wrong . i write what i feel .

so here's the things . there's this boy and he kinda has my heart . it's just like the movies . cinematic and dramatic with the perfect ending . usually the odds of me trippin' are like next to nothing . guarded my heart like a diamond ring . but love , your love changes everything .

it's funny how things changed in a blink of an eye . remember when i said i'm walking away and never looking back ? and look at us now . but i didn't lie . i did walk away and i never looked back . but then , you came running after me . you never gave up .

i opened my heart to you because i knew you were worth it . i was willing to take the risk without knowing where it would lead me . although i knew that there was a 50% chance that i would get my heart broken . but i followed my heart anyway . and it was worth it .

the things you do for me are priceless . remember when you came by after my Biology exam just to get Ben and Jerry's because you knew how much i love it ? and remember the day you came by just to be there for me because you knew i was having a hard time in the midst of SPM ? you're really sweet and i appreciate everything you do .

so make believe in miracles my friends . anything can happen . if you can't see the sign , wait for it . one hundred percent with every penny spent he'll be the one that finishes your sentences .

2010-11-10T12:29:00.000-08:00

Knowing you're there every day , makes me high in my own special way .

2010-11-04T00:04:00.000-07:00

Et deux par deux sans compter nos morts
Qu'on laisse derrière des ébauches fanées
Des secrets de carrière
Et trois par trois nos cœurs essoufflés
Des secousses folles on réfléchit plus tard
Maintenant il faut rêver

Et je ne sais plus à quoi penser
C'est dur d'être libre comme toi
Et je ne sais plus à qui penser
C'est fini rhabille-toi

2010-10-29T01:21:00.000-07:00

reuben's work of art

sample space : { L , O , V , E }
probability of getting U : 0/4
hence , the probability of getting U is : 0

2010-10-25T00:03:00.002-07:00

2010-10-24T23:35:00.001-07:00

isn't he adorable ?

2010-10-24T03:54:00.000-07:00

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

introducing to you - NUR NABILAH PUWIRAJAYA . her lips is undoubtedly the sexiest among us bunch . she's allergic to crabs . when she eats em' her lips would swell and increase in size . i have a picture of it but I'm not allowed to post it up , unfortunately .

and she is skinny as you can see .

on the right is NURAINA SURYANI . one time during exam she accidentally wrote her name as nuraina suryano . i couldn't stop laughing for about 60 seconds . she's quiet . many people find it hard to even find a topic to talk about with her . but somehow , i can . i can tell her anything though we disagree to almost everything . which is good . especially when it comes to shopping . trust me , we would never fight over a dress for an example . she's my shopping buddy for sure . she doesn't complain when i shop too much (Y)

and this is NADIRA ALIA . we spend way too much time together . one time she wrote a note on facebook on

'bet you didn't know these things about me! '

. i knew almost everything expect for 4 statements that is . i usually rent DVDs from video easy and watch it with her either at my place or hers .

and last but not least NG U- SERN . lets just say he's f**king annoying . HAHAHAHA .

i love ya'll

fact-fiction

2010-10-21T23:31:00.000-07:00

Imagine a world without me - say you're falling apart

Let's pretend you've missed me for a while
Wouldn't you say you were lonely and love was breaking your heart?
Put on your Sunday best and fake a smile

I dream of dreaming dreams of her - in twilight she's a constant blur
The picture is clear and I'm still fact she's fiction

where do i stand

2010-10-19T23:04:00.001-07:00

Seeing you happy makes me oh so proud, I guess I don't need to ask where I stand.
I'm by your side.

why worry ?

2010-10-15T03:37:00.000-07:00

have you ever tried to learn something , had it explained to you several times , but you still couldn't grasp it ? then , one day , someone explains it again but perhaps using slightly different words and , all of at once , the penny drops and you wonder why it had seemed so hard to understand before . it would be a complete bull if you disagree to never have encountered such situation. having said that , i would like to thank you AMY for making me realise something that others might have failed to do .

they say , life is neutral , neither black nor white . we colour it with the feelings we attribute to it . things happen and , once they've happened , they can't be changed . simply because none of us can change the past , can we ? however i learned to believe that we don't remember the past in terms of facts , but in terms of our feelings about it . if we can therefore learn to look back at the past through different eyes , through an undistorted memory window , we may be able to change the way we feel about it . if we can do this , we can replace our memory window and change the past for a better one . yes this is directed you anonymous . if you're trying to bring me down with your wicked words , it's not working hunny . sorry but i've grown too strong to ever care .

and to you love , we can all be more of what we want to be - we just have to allow ourselves to move towards it . it's not what you do , it's the way you think and feel about it . after all , your life is here and now . this isn't some kind of dress rehearsal -it's the real thing ! enjoy it ! don't let it slip by .

that boy

2010-10-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

Oh, tonight I'm feeling fine . I'm alone , just wasting time . No Friday movie nights or romantic candle lights . I'm just having conversations . With the thoughts in my head . All I hear are angels crying . Oh, won't they just sing instead . It would be wrong for me to say ;

I don't need that boy by my side . I don't need that boy in my life . I don't want to talk it out or hold him when he cries . I don't want to say he's my kind . I don't want to say that he's mine . I don't want to tell him that I love him more than life . More than life, Yeah . Love him more than life .
Yeah, yeah, yeah

haha so basically i changed all the her to him , all the she to he and all the girl to boy . sounds fine i guess . well it does to me , and that's all that matters .

hello October ,

2010-10-01T17:31:00.000-07:00

to write love on his arms ;

take note that this is my heart talking and not my brain . therefore I'm not listening to the part of my mind which holds one's knowledge of right or wrong . i write what i feel .

you're very comforting , like a warm blanket . i can tell you anything , and you would never judge .you could tell if I'm feeling a lil ghastly without me throwing around hints.

basically , somewhere between all our laughs , long talks , stupid little arguments , and all our jokes , i fell in love . but i don't want to be in love with a guy who doesn't love me back . been there , and it's not a nice place . i'd rather fall for a guy who is in love with me because mama once said never love someone more than they love you .

thus , I'm walking away and never looking back . you're just a lil too late .

BTW

it's funny isn't it how even the smallest gesture from a complete stranger can turn your day around ?

i have a feeling it's gonna be an awesome month (Y)
goodbye ,

when will i see your face again

2010-09-12T04:20:00.000-07:00

You know that all my life I've been waiting ,
waiting for someone,
someone like you to love me .
You can't come by like an angel into my life
and then fly away,
fly away .

cooler than me

2010-08-01T21:58:00.000-07:00

If I could write you a song to make you fall in love , I would already have you up under my arm . I used up all of my tricks, I hope that you like this . But you probably won't, you think you're cooler than me. You got designer shades just to hide your face and you wear 'em around like you're cooler than me . And you never say "hey" or remember my name and it's probably 'cause you think you're cooler than me . You got your high brow shoes on your feet and you wear 'em around like it ain't shit . But you don't know the way that you look when your steps make that much noise. Shh, see I got you all figured out . You need every one's eyes just to feel seen . Behind your make up nobody knows who you even are .
Who do you think that you are?

a cup of comfort

2010-07-20T00:21:00.000-07:00

That tree stood out to me , because , overnight , the leaves had fallen and revealed what keeps it all together : it's trunk , it's backbone--lustrous and strong and reaching towards the sky . As I looked around , with both feet firmly planted on the ground , my woods were no longer a beautiful blur . They were vast rich with possibilities . I felt a sense of discovery I hadn't had , or taken time to have , in a very long time . it made me excited to go on . Even though i'd be moving in the same direction I'd been going all along , it would be with a new focus .
I'm going to pay attention to something I'd almost lost track of: myself . In this year , I intend to slow down and appreaciate and learn .

swirl

2010-06-06T22:22:00.000-07:00

it's all about the colours .

Did you see the shiny moon? Turned into a black balloon . Just as you walked away from me ?

13 things you have to know about me

1. i get amazed by the smallest little things .

2. i don't really like the idea of having a boyfriend but that doesn't mean i can't be with anyone . know the difference .

3. when i say Brownie i'm not referring to a homo sapien , it's an animal , my cat .

4. i spend a lot ALOT of time with my mom .

5. i wish my grades would smoke weed so they could get higher .

6. i miss TRL . anyone ?

7. i don't really watch shows on TV gossip girl for example there and then , i watch it a day after on 999 thanks to astro max.

8. i hate it when somebody steals my thunder .

9. i don't judge a book by it's cover but i judge a book by it's synopsis instead .

10. i was thinking of naming my child Abcde but the probability of happening would be 1/1000 .

11. i sneak into toys r us once in while to embrace my childhood that i don't remember happening.

12. i love to roam around hypermarkets to check out the new cool items or food .

13. i can't stand people who litters.

yes i wanna come home

2010-06-04T06:08:00.000-07:00

For so long I was out in the cold, and I taught myself to believe every story I told. It was fun hanging onto the moon, heading into the sun, but it's been too long. Now I wanna come home.
Came so close to the edge of defeat. But I made my way in the shade, keeping out of the heat. It was fun shooting out of the stars, looking into the sun, but it's been too long. Now I wanna come home.
Home. Where's there's nothing but sweet surrender, to the memories from afar. Home. To the place where the truth lies waiting, we remember who we are.
For too long I was out on my own. Every day I spent trying to prove I could make it alone. It was fun hanging onto the moon, heading into the sun,
but it's been too long. Now I wanna come home.

it was meant to be

2010-05-28T08:27:00.000-07:00

have you watched Letters To Juliet ? if no , go watch it .
if yes , I'm sure you find it romantic if you're a girl that is . but i know that you think it doesn't happen in reality .
sorry to break it to you but it does . the story reminds me of my grandparents . my grandmother to be exact . it's as if the story was made for her . no kiddin'

you see , my grandmother went to studied in the UK when she was in her 20's . there she met a Malay man who she feel utterly in love for . they promised so many things . and one of it was to get married . so before he left (since he's a senior and graduated earlier) he gave my grandmother a ring that would symbolise their love and yes as promised to get married .

this guy that she was in love was a Syed . being a typical and tied to their culture , his mom wanted him to marry a Sharifah . that was how it was like back then . as expected , he declined his mothers wishes .
however , months later his mom fell sick . and she said to him before she died she wanted to see his son get married . she wanted to see him getting married to a Sharifah which was already chosen for him before hand . being an obedient son as he was , he granted his mom's wishes and married this girl . she was a nice loyal young lady who love's him gratefully .

so he sent the heartbreaking news to my grandmother , explaining bits by bits and told his reasons and yes apologized .

they were both heart broken . but my grandma is one strong women . i would like to think that I'm like her . anyway , since he moved on so did she .
later , she meet my grandpa and yes got married . they were happy i think . happy enough .

around 50 years later my grandma and this man met again at a reunion . they updated their lives and told about their partners . if I'm not mistaken he's wife recently died . being as curious as ever he asked who my grandma was married to and she said she was married to a clerk (which was not true . my grandpa was actually a Dato' doing really well) . i don't know why she lied but she did .

months later , news hit the papers and the prime minister then which was Mahathir come by to my grandma's house, my grandpa died . you see Mahathir was really close to my grandpa they were studying together back in the UK . so news spread , 'the man' was baffled and surprise that my grandmother lied .

months later , he convinced my grandma to meet up with him . and they went on a couple of dates or so . if that's what you call it . and he said to her

since i already lost my wife , and you lost your husband why won't we get married .

that was it . the whole family without a doubt agreed . come one . it's true love . and it was meant to be . so they did get married with approval of the whole family including my grandma's four sons .
they got married and lived one happy life . they travelled all around the world together .

after around three years of spending their lives together , they were both hit with one painful news . his husband has cancer , colon cancer to be exact.

but he was strong , he acted as if he was healthy and cancer-free when in actually fact he wasn't . after months of fighting the disease he was too weak to fight it back . he was so sick . he refused to use my grandma's money to treat his disease because as you can guess the money belongs to my late grandpa . he feels that the money doesn't belong to him and it could be put to better use .

and later , he died . around a year ago . yes it's sad . but at least they got to spend their lives together .

at least this man finally got to marry the girl he always wanted to .

at least , at least he died happily .

it's beautiful , sad but beautiful

2010-05-14T04:30:00.000-07:00

Hush, baby don't cry
Just get through this night
Overcome

Cuz all that you are
Is broken inside
But they'll never know
They'll never know

Don't think that they'll change
They push you away
Far from home

Cuz all that they are
Is broken inside
But they'll never know
They'll never know

Don't you cry tonight
Rest your weary eyes
Cuz all that you are
Is broken inside
It's nothing you could change
It's nothing you could hide
It's nothing you could hide

move forward like a shark

2010-05-08T05:56:00.000-07:00

mom was away a couple of days ago so dad came by to baby sit me . it's funny isn't . baby sit me . haha okay lets just say he came by to take care of me ??

i was eating lunch one day with dad when i saw a Ben 10 party hat next to me from Ameline's party. so i started to do what i do best - start crapping

i told him to wear it since it's what we have to do when we eat lunch in this house .

after i said that he just stared at me , silent . took the hat and put it on and continued eating . like nothing happened .

i was completely dumbfounded . like seriously ? mom by no chance would do it.

he posted all the pictures up on fb on a album titled 'the things daddies do to amuse their daughters'

what ?? haha okay dad -/-

anyway ,

my new line is , move forward like a shark regardless of the situation . I've been going through a lot lately . but that's not gonna stop me from achieving my bombastic dream ahead of me .

flip it over

2010-05-07T08:44:00.000-07:00

someone has been talking bad about the other someone . and the other someone did talk about this someone . cut story short they've been talking about each other . bad things about each other . and i am left puzzled for who to believe . each side of the story is different . but in this case , since I'm not close to you anymore , I'm just gonna shut up and sit back . I'm just gonna let it pass by .

BTW it's funny isn't it when your gay guy friend comes up to you and say something like,

" man that dude is so hot . why must he be straight ? " :(

so you tell him yea i fell you man but in actual fact your really really really happy that the dude he was talking about is straight .

...

love it here .

5A 2010

2010-04-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

i'm in yellow ! the one and only . spot me already ?

even if the moon fell down tonight

2010-04-20T23:20:00.000-07:00

there'd be nothing to worry about at all .

dollhouse

2010-04-17T07:08:00.000-07:00

i'm just a girl ,
your just a boy ,
this is my heart
it's not a toy ,

so what's with you playing with my mind ?

oh dear

2010-04-15T22:37:00.000-07:00

i don't know what to feel right now . i was happy at first as it had put an end to my question . so i just laughed about it . but after some time of thinking , the smiling fades . it's not that I'm sad . it's just - how are you able to look at them in the same way again . maybe I'm over thinking it , it needs time to digest . a lot of time . or maybe not . like i said maybe I'm over reacting .

i bet your confuse like 'what the fuck is this girl talking about ? i can't understand a shit ' . i can only imagine . so let's just put it this way ;

someone tells you something . you kinda know it might be true . but refuse to accept it as you wish and pray it's not true . in other words - you wish the exact opposite .
but then the person himself comes up to you and tells you it's true .

get what I'm talking about ?
nvm .

all i want to do

2010-04-13T00:06:00.000-07:00

I don't want to get up baby, let's turn off the phone
I don't want to go to work today or even put my makeup on
I've got better things to do than my todo list anyway
Hide under the covers and waste away the day
Let's just lay here and be lazy, baby drive me crazy

sports day 2010

2010-04-04T00:01:00.001-07:00

the 200m run was terrible . i was damn tired , 20 minutes in high heels under the blazing hot sun with an empty stomach and you expect me to sprint right after ? haihh . nway i got one medal ! yay i'm happy enough :)

TRANSFORMERS !

GAGAH DAN BERBISA !

photos by Umar Shafiz

China

2010-03-18T04:48:00.001-07:00

facial expressions

2010-02-19T06:47:00.000-08:00

Facial Expressions

by Nana Andrea

Nuraina Suryani

Ng U-Sern

Shubash

Nadira Alia

Nabilah

xoxo

Feb 16

2010-02-17T08:55:00.000-08:00

The Curve .

best birthday ever

2010-02-05T01:24:00.001-08:00

4.2.2010

as usual i received a few texts and calls as soon as it was midnight . i wasn't that psyched that it was my birthday and i fell asleep pretty easily . my mom woke me up, confused , i had a look at the watch and it was only 12.10 a.m, as soon as i opened the door my mom started singing happy birthday . still confused why she would do such a thing, i just sang along . out of no where there was this other voice joining as . i had a peek out of the door and guess what ?

it was AMELINE TAN .

she was holding a box of cupcakes with 17 lighted candles ( later i learned that she forgot to light one candle up) so 16 lighted candles actually .

shocked and baffled i didn't know what to say .
things that ran through my mind was;

'how the hell did you planned this with my mom without me knowing'
'how the hell did you came into my house without me hearing '

but that wasn't what i asked i just said three words that would summarize everything that was on my mind

i love you .

school was superb , but one thing was missing . why didn't my classmates sing me and Haris a birthday song like they usually do on peoples birthday ? oh well , as soon as i know it , it was already time for chemistry . i took out my books coz we had to go to the lab . Mun Hong randomly came up and started carrying my books for me . weird ? yes ! but what the heck . as i was walking to the back door Tishal turned and he was holding a cake with one lighted candle . the whole class started to sing . awesome !

5.02.10

Ameline told me to be at secret recipe by 8.00 p.m but when i was there at 8.10 , not even a single soul appeared. my mom decided to wait with me . half an hour went by , still no one appeared . i tried to remain calm coz everything seemed suspicious with my mom constantly texting with her phone . at 8.45 i received a text from Fie which said ..... they couldn't make it .

i just laughed and told my mom that they're not coming and let's go home. suspicious , i told my mom did you know about this ? she just ignored me ! wth .

so my mom passed me the key cz she wanted to go to the gym , slowly i went inside through the small gate . i felt that there was something wrong so i looked around and found Ameline's slipper under a chair . i went closer and found 3 other slippers stack on top of each other . i started laughing so loud . i ran outside to find my mom's car still there and i opened the door and said

ma ade selipar !!

i ran back inside and gently opened the front door and there you go
my monkey friends (nana , ameline , nadira , nadiah , aina , fie , natasya) was jumping and shouting SURPRISE!
i told them about the slippers and all hands pointed Natasya cz she was assigned to hide the slippers.

i didn't even had the time to put my handbag down , they already covered my eyes with a towel and said we have another surprise for you . after 3 minutes of waiting (yes they're slow ) i opened my eyes and

to my surprise it was my favourite cake from secret recipe in front of me .

and special thanks to meor ahmad meor for buying me this guys new album CRAZY LOVE

someone somewhere

2010-01-29T18:20:00.000-08:00

nobody's perfect

nobody's perfect no one really knows the truth
all we've got's a point of view

but you should take your eyes off the ground
out of the blue
and see that someone is looking right
back at you

where ya gonna go from here
cause everything you need's out there
and you can have it if you dare
if you dare

there's someone somewhere

best weekend yet

2010-01-24T07:11:00.000-08:00

Qistina's Surprise Party;

she was surprised alright :)

larian mesra;

number 12 baby !

heaven on earth

2010-01-09T17:43:00.000-08:00

it's a brand new day

2010-01-09T08:56:00.000-08:00

Most kind of stories
Save the best part for last
Most stories have a hero who finds

You make your past your past
Yeah you make your past your past

Its a brand new day
The sun is shining
Its a brand new day
For the first time
In such a long long time
I know
I'll be ok

This cycle never ends

Gotta fall in order to mend

haven't met you yet

2009-11-28T18:40:00.000-08:00

I'm Not Surprised

Not everything Lasts
I've Broken My Heart So Many Times,
I've Stopped Keepin Track.
Talk Myself In
I Talk Myself Out
I Get all worked up

Than I Let Myself Down.

I Tried So Very Hard Not To Lose It
I Came Up With A Million Excuses
I Thought I thought of Every Possibility

And I Know Someday That it'll All Turn up
You'll Make Me Work So We Can Work To Work It Out
And I Promise You Kid That I'll Give So Much More Than I Get

I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Since my birth 6118 days ago,

2009-11-04T20:48:00.000-08:00

My heart has beat more than 634314240 times.
My heart has pumped more than 46313260 litres or 12236000 gallons of blood.
My kidneys have filtered more than 1040060 litres or 275310 gallons of blood.
I have breathed more than 132148800 times.
I have inhaled more than 63682262 litres or 67298000 quarts of air.
My breathing has generated more than 5506.2 kg or 12138.89 pounds of Carbon dioxide.
I have blinked more than 82225920 times.
My mouth has produced more than 5812.1 litres or 1529.5 gallons of saliva.
My body has shed more than 11379.48 grams or 25.09 pounds of skin.
I have lost more than 611800 strands of hair.
If i hadn't taken single haircut, my hair would be more than 101.16 inches long today.
If i hadn't cut my fingernails a single time, they would be more than 20.1894 inches long today.
If i hadn't cut my toenails a single time, they would be more than 11.6242 inches long today.

i don't know if i can yell any louder

2009-09-12T03:25:00.000-07:00

i can barely look at you

over time pictures fade
and all that's left are these empty frames
sleepless nights and stormy days
i've got proof that people change

xoxo

4 Amanah 2009

2009-09-04T07:28:00.000-07:00

What started out as a class interview report turned out to be disastrous!

yesterday, today and tomorrow

2009-04-08T01:32:00.000-07:00

nadiah norazman gave this to me and i was amazed,
why so clever la !

sweet 16 ?

2009-02-13T04:35:00.000-08:00

when your SIXTEEN you say yay hurray mua is so sugar-sweetish-licking-gooood ;)

ok maybe not. pfft ..

since he insist on my counting the one's who wished me from 12am-12 am on the 4th of feb, i actually did do so but that was just because i was bored.
so here it goes;

jaji
meor
yana
azman
lutfi
sya+muidz
ameline
ayesha
qis
umi
nadira
aina s
naz
fay
faeqah
adlin
haris
nurul
class of 4a
faiqah
fatin athira
izani
mh
shafiza
aina a
p. johan
daddy
mom
adham
inarah
mr.gideon
ameerul
nana
rayna
syara

8th of feb two- o-o-nine;

have a laugh

i love you guys ;p

aina a. she got what she wanted for ages and what could be more festive that the day she has been waiting for fell on her bday. she did'nt ask nothing more than just simply HIM that mkes her beyond full-of-joy. what a great gift she got for her bday,

no need to ask, i approve you being with him and so do qis . love you babe !
* u have to agree they look lovely together
knkn ? ;D
HAPPY BELATED 16 BDAY AINA AFIQAH,

lol

2009-01-04T00:32:00.000-08:00

ssurvey

2008-12-17T04:22:00.000-08:00

Random Song Survey of Musicalness
Name 15 random songs.

1st song: ordinary day by vanessa carlton
2nd song: my world by tim kay

3rd song: never be lonely by the feeling
4th song: miserable at best by mayday parade
5th song: on your porch by the format
6th song: remembering sunday by all time low
7th song: the call by regina spektor
8th song: come down to me by saving jane
9th song: they weren't there by missy higgins
10th song: details in the fabric by jason mraz
11th song: maybe by secondhand serenade
12th song: hollywood's not america by ferras
13th song: run by snow patrol
14th song:kindly unspoken by kate voegele
15th song: same jeans by the view

Why do you like the 1st song?:
cz i cn't stop playin it on the piano.

Who does the 2nd song remind you of?:
jamie oliver

Name your favorite lyric from the 3rd song.:
people in love get fast and foolish,
people in love get everything wrong,
people in love get scared and stupid,
people in love get everything wrong,

b-b-baby i think im going c-c-crazy...

Do you have any special memories attached to the 4th song?:
haha

Do you relate personally to the 5th song?:
haha

Does/would your grandmother like the 6th song?:
maybe

What did you think when you first heard the 7th song?:
i so wanna learn how to play this on the piano !

What color does the 8th song remind you of?:
white

What is the 9th song about?:
u tell me;

You breathed infinity into my world
and time was lost up in a cloud and in a whirl.
We dug a hole in the cool grey earth and lay there for the night.
Then you said, "wait for me we'll fly the wind,
we'll grow old and you'll be stronger without him" but oh,
now my world is at your feet. I was lost and I was found,
but I was alive and now I've drowned.
So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
so they can tell me I was wrong...

But they weren't there beneath your stare,
and they weren't stripped 'till they were bare of
any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand
and led through fields of naked land
where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...
so I couldn't say "no".

You sighed and I was lost in you, weeks could've past for all I knew.
You were the blanket of the over-world and so I couldn't say,
I wouldn't say "no". But they all said, "you're too young to even know,
just don't let it grow and you'll be stronger without him"
but oh, now, my world is at your feet. I was lost and I was found,
but I was alive and now I've drowned.
So now I will be waiting for the world to hear my song
so they can tell me I was wrong...

But they weren't there beneath your stare,
and they weren't stripped 'till they were bare
of any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...

But they weren't there beneath your stare,
and they weren't stripped 'till they were bare
of any bindings from the world outside that room.
And they weren't taken by the hand and led through fields
of naked land where any pre-conceived ideas were blown away...
so I couldn't say "no".

Does the 10th song get stuck in your head easily?:
yep it sure did.

Could you play the 11th song for a toddler and not feel guilty?:
they would'nt understand it anyway so yea i wn't fell guilty.

Is the singer of the 12th song hot?:
i betcha he is.

What part of your life does the 13th song describe best?:
-

Does the 14th song have a cool video?:
i haven't seen the vid before and i dn't thnk this song has one.

How old is the 15th song?:
old enough. very old.

Which of these is your favorite?:
for now, they weren't there by missy higgins.

Your least favorite?:
same jeans by the view.

Have any of these made you cry?
Which ones? (Be honest. It's ok, trust me.):
nope it's not in the list.

Which is the most personal for you?:
kindly unspoken by kate voegele

Did you like this survey?:
haha. hell no. thnks alot for the tag -.-.
;p

If you didn't, oh well. If ya did, thanks and bye!:
right-o

pinhead

2008-12-03T06:22:00.003-08:00

Should've known you'd bring me heartache ,
Almost lovers always do.

yeaa

2008-11-30T03:38:00.000-08:00

Liver and Cheese

Three handsome male dogs are walking down the street when they see a beautiful, enticing, female Poodle.

The three male dogs fall all over themselves in an effort to be the one to reach her first, but end up arriving in front of her at the same time.

The males are speechless before her beauty, slobbering on themselves and hoping for just a glance from her in return.

Aware of her charms and her obvious effect on the three suitors, she decides to be kind and tells them, "The first one who can use the words 'liver' and 'cheese' together in an imaginative, intelligent sentence can go out with me."

The sturdy, muscular black Lab speaks up quickly and says, "I love liver and cheese."

"Oh, how childish," said the Poodle. "That shows no imagination or intelligence whatsoever."

She turns to the tall, shiny Golden Retriever and says "How well can you do?"

"Um. I HATE liver and cheese," blurts the Golden Retriever.

"My, my," said the Poodle. "I guess it's hopeless. That's just as dumb as the Lab's sentence."

She then turns to the last of the three dogs and says, "How about you, little guy?"

The last of the three, tiny in stature but big in fame and finesse, is the Taco Bell Chihuahua.

He gives her a smile, a sly wink, turns to the Golden Retriever and the Lab and says....

Liver alone. Cheese mine.

survey- tagged by nadira alia

2008-11-26T04:34:00.000-08:00

1. Is there any fictional character you're in love with?

nope. not at the moment.

2. Who is more important to you?friends/boyfriends/girlfriends

friends ?

3. Have you ever thought of getting married?

yep.

4. Does your crush like you back?

AHAHAHAHAHA, no. But he doesn't know i like him.

5. How many babies do you want?

i guess, TWO.

6. What is your goal for this year?

8 a's for pmr !

7. Do you believe in eternal love?

yep.

8. In your opinion, what are the characteristics of the perfect boy/girlfriend?(10 characteristics)

He..

1) is TALL
2) has curly hair ;) but straight is ok.
3) has nice body. u know abs and stuff .
4) is loyal.
5) makes me happy when im down.
6) doesn't smoke cz i just hate the smell and he's gonna die faster, HAHA.
7) is good looking.
8) is down to earth.
9) ade otak !HAHA. i don't want a dumb ass guy.
10) get along with my love ones.

9. What feeling do you love most?

emmm, the feeling (:

10. What is your bad habit ?

entah, u tell me.

11. Is there anything you want to tell people who hate you?

hate me more ! Rrr. Haha nah i would say, GET A LIFE YOU ASS !

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?

yep even the bad ones.

13. What does flying mean to you?

FREEDOM baby!

14. Who do you love?

YOU alright !

15. Who do you think is hotter? edward cullen or jacob black?

i'll have to say edward coz nad would kill me if i don't.HAHA

16. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words

NAD she's- fun, loud, sarcastic, and a twilight freak !

17. What would you really like to do right now?

finish this survey asap.`

18. What will you become in the next 10 years?

who am i to decide ?

19. How to find the right partner?

that's SIMPLE. eeni, minie, miny, moe !

20. What are you wishing for right NOW?

to kill him.

I tag ;

most of the people i know already did this so yeaa.
but i tag u farquar ! coz u haven't been updating your blog for awhile.
:D hate me.

Instructions:Remove one question from above and add in your personal question. Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them in their cbox that they've been tagged. Who ever does the tag will have blessings from all.

mierda !

2008-11-13T05:40:00.000-08:00

im feeling down today.

Tell me about it

2008-09-29T14:22:00.001-07:00

If it's a broken pot, replace it.
If it's a broken arm then brace it.
If it's a broken heart than face it.

James Morrison and Jason Mraz. They sing well together (:

now I'm stuck with nothing else but choices. I only have two choice. Lets just call it the right ,*the long way*and left ,*the short cut*. I'm a pro in taking the left side. I've tried it so many times and it always work, without a doubt. But at some point i think I'm gonna take the right side this time. It deals with problems better. I guess. I'll just give it a shot. If it doesn't work , it will be a lesson to me. I'll definitely take the short cut next time. *keeping my fingers cross*

The Muslim's are celebrating raya soon. Oh wait ! *checking my calender* it's tomorrow bitch. So yeah that means today is the last day of puasa. This year i did'nt really had the chance to buka puasa with my friends like we usually do during the previous years. Well that's just simply because they're busy studying and so am i. We're nerds, haha ! Not just that but they are busy heading to their kampongs. I hate when people ask me where's my kampong and I'll have to say i don't have one coz my grndparents live here in kl. And they'll say `x boring ke? ` well it's not as if i have a choice, do i ? But yeah i don't think it's boring coz i don't really know what im missing. I never had one .

I met prab's last sat. To be honest he's getting hotter and yeah taller. Everyone is getting taller except me. Why ?why ? But it's okay, great things come it small packages aite . Nway yeah i miss him loads and arif. The form 1 years in tuisyen was great.

Well it's 5 in the morning aite now. I really need to be getting some sleep. Before i forget "SLAMAT HARI RAYA"

XOXO,
lyss.

yep

2008-09-20T23:08:00.000-07:00

BODOHLAH

plain

2008-09-05T06:55:00.000-07:00

Malaysia celebrated its 51st year of merdeka on 31st august 08. i couldn't resist on not to go out the night before. oh come on bersemangat la sikit aite (:

so since aina afiqah couldn't make it, i rang up aina suryani. i told her that i was going to fetch her in 1/2 an hours time and that we are going to the curve. i left her no choice but to tag along.
cut story short.

it was awesome! qistina broke her high heel's and she was bare footed for a while. luckily she met naddie who luckily had bought flats and luckily shares the same size as qis.what a lucky day for her. seing people getting high and do silly stuff are fun. and yeah singing the national anthem together HAHAHA. fuh, awesome.

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WEY i met Andrew Scott at orange mart after tuition with nadiah. its been one year since i last met him.he went there to buy kuaci for his grandma. what to do she wanted to eat it that night jgak. hahaha. pity him. and it was as usual a problem taking pictures with him. it's either you get his full face without yours or yr full face without his but only his neck. he's TALL. he can't stop talking, seriously. it's a miracle if he doens't talk for 5 minutes. okla 10 minutes. pft he still remember calling me ..oh nvm. it's better if you people don't know.

so yeah,
im bored and lazy. too lazy to write a long one this time.
oh and it's the fasting month.
which means raya is coming , which means money is coming. $$$$$$$$$$
haha

xoxo,
lyss.

count down 3,2,1 .

2008-08-29T06:02:00.000-07:00

surprisingly, like really, SURPRISINGLY. i got an A for bm ;) everyone was shocked because they know how bad my bm is. I'll usually get the lowest among all. even my teacher was like "alyssa kamu dpt a" with a really wide smile on her face. and syara called yesterday to ask about how was trial and she was envy of my results. haha so yeah everyone was shocked. but i just hope I'll do better for pmr.

on tuesday during maths class, luqman told the teacher how great sperms are compared to ovums. and the teacher agreed. so i stood up suddenly, and gave a piece of my mind to them on how ovums rock better. they were speechless. haha ass holes. nadiah went like alyssa cis patut record la tdie. hahahaha.

we went to hypermedia on wednesday to study. it was as quiet as a mouse church.seriously. if you drop a pencil, everyone, i say everyone means eveyone will stare at you and give you the face. you know what i mean. after a while, we were hungry so we went to makbul. honestly i didn't have an idea that sotong and kambing are darn it expensive. so i ordered that with plane rice to share with naz. the bill went up to rm9.70. i stared at naz and she stared at me back , 9.70 ?hahaha.but luckily i brought rm10.fuh !

today since school is having majlis perasmian or whatever it's called i spent the whole day at aina suryani's house. we studied . ate . onlined . studied . watched tv. onlined . studied . hahha. aina showed me some of dbsk's concerts. they're weird but not that bad. but still weird. max is kinda cute. but hey that doesn't mean i like them. lol.

chow people,
it's gonna be a long day for me tomorrow. a long day of studying. one crash course after another.
so yeah.

lots of love, lyss !

it's another part of life

2008-08-14T10:00:00.000-07:00

it's hard when you depend on someone believing they will be there for you no matter what it takes. but they won't , and if you think they would, it's all crap. it's all in the mind. people come and go, they go and never come back. and what do they leave you ? just a trace of shit. but sometimes you're just happy seeing them go. maybe because they steal things that makes you happy. things that means the world to you because it doesn't happen all the time. they come a grab it all away from you. they just don't want you to be in on cloud nine. they don't wanna see you do better than they do. how selfish can a man be ? i am not sure myself. but i reckon that's just the way the world works nowadays.

anyway trials are over ! im really tired of studying so i made up my mind to skip school tomorrow. im not sure what im goin to do but i'll probably go online and maybe lepak at taipan or sumthing.will see. and guess what happened during kh ?it was 15 minutes before the exam was over.i asked my teacher whats inovatif in english and she said its innovative.oh then i asked whats the difference between innovative and creative.i honestly didn't expect her to answer.so she explained to whole meaning blablabla.then my classmates were staring and i started laughing.then this girl im not sure who said"teacher you just gave her the answer".hahahaa.and so the teacher took my paper away so that i can't change my answer or whatsoever.lol i did'nt care coz i already finish it.

oh ya haris asked if i wanted to play futsal this hols ?i seriusly would not dare to take the risk because the last time i played futsal with him i sprained my arm.and who know's this time i'll maybe fracture my arm plak.and so he ask about rock climbing ?by the time i wanted to answer he was offline. but i really wanna go rock climbing la !

after tuition today sya got this call from some guy.he said she just won this tennis competition or something like that.sya was like when the hell did i even join a tennis comp. she can't even play tennis anymore coz she got grounded since pmr is coming.then the guy said this is jj from hitz you just got gotcha and all that crap. and of course she did'nt believing him so she hang up. but after a few minutes she said what if it was them ?emm .then her father came and she went back home. adem then came to us asking if sya believed the trick or not.i laughed like crazy with nad. it was actually adem. what a great liar he is.

oh darn my mom has been bugging me to offline since it's already late.but im not goin to school tomorrow !ohwtv, i need to go now,

tatothetutothela ?
yeah bye.

adorable

2008-08-08T09:12:00.000-07:00

bangs for the memories

2008-07-11T06:26:00.000-07:00

i kept my promise to write you a long post, so this is it.

you came to my life out of the blue and you made me fall for you as

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
then turned into a quiet word

maybe, oh i just don't know.thinking that

if theres somebody
he's the one
holding me on

nothing in this world begins with a happy moment until the end.there must be something rocky in between and

Just because everything’s changing
Doesn’t mean it’s never been this way before

but when it does happen, its hard to forget as

Every night she cried herself to sleep
Thinking "why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"

deep down she know's

it's a wonderful world

but i can't feel it right now

she dreams every single second, minute, hour and day for a perfect life but

who am i to dream

dream are for fools they let you down

it's hard to say because she's not sure whats on her mind and

Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do

we have to learn how to forgive and forget because people make mistakes.as the

Words fall out of my mouth
And I can’t seem to trace what I’m saying
Everybody wants your time
I’m just dreaming out loud,
I can’t have you for mine and I know it
I just wanna watch you shine

to write love on her arms;

2008-07-03T23:35:00.000-07:00

for the special one; aina afiqah.

people will always love you,
no matter where you are or go,
coz you are such a wonder,
in everyones heart,
you make things better when it all falls apart,
if theres a place then i'll proclaim,
you'll be in the angels hall of fame,
these are my words to you,
remember it deep in your heart,
and if life seems so perplex,
just bear in mind it all happens for a reason,
it may be good or bad,
but just hold on and pray to god.

way back into love

2008-06-28T23:12:00.000-07:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

And If I open my heart to you
Im hopin you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end